belated blog

Hi all...things good...feeling pretty god about life at the momment....M doing better and things there seem to be good....Dan's birthday was fantastic...she is above and beyond an amazing girl really love her.....dinner friday was also pretty good although james managed to get us lost on the way home not once but twice...he came in my car so i would not get lost :) today was nerd fest 2006 (cancon) was not as cool as last year more game less cool stuff....still managed to spend some dollars on funky dice cause as you all know you can never have enough dice...also bought a pres for Matt....cant say what in case he reads this before he gets it but it rocks and I will be borrowing it off him :)
Have decided to run a game.....daring stuff given i still suck so badly at playing.....(aparently i ruin games)....still who cares its a game YES A GAME.....people playing in mine will understand that i suck and get nervous and make stupid mistakes...hopefully i wont stink too badly....going to run something noones played before that way when i stuff it up hopefully no one will notice :) hee hee....prob run a monthly thing or two monthly depending on peoples availability etc....not for a while yet cause need to finish reading the books so i at least have some background info...*sigh* this is going to be interesting..........
been hanging with adrian alot lately...thats been good have missed his company....prob one of the best people i have met in a long time...certainly been a huge support for me over the last year of intersting times.....his wonderful housemate alana is leaving soon and that makes me sad cause she is great....there seems to be a crazy plan about me taking over her room when she goes sometime mid year...seems like it could work but have not made any plans yet..will see how it goes.....there is a game on at my house and thats cool...i not in it cause was not here all day but it sounds like they having a blast....occassionally yelling and shouting out classic nerd stuff...i love it.....B still not really talking to me which sucks given how good a friend he was...i get it but it still hurts and i still feel like he is being unfair....selfish of me but thats how i feel.....work is ok...told them i cant go full time cause of uni commitments and am in the process of negotiating for part time...hope that works out..the company is a good one.....anyway thats about it...Polly sorry did not call been kinda crazy busy lately but i miss you and love you always and will try to be better at telephoning soon.....xxx......my lovely car is running great and finally has a name...BUG...she's great/he's great...I am respecting its privacy......name comes from the car smelly thing in the dash that looks like a little bug....anyway am off now....must get organised for next week....

cheers
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jinx

hi all its been a while since i last posted but hey i was never labelled the most reliable within my social circles....things are still pretty crazy for me i am working alot but seem to be earning less...got offered masters at anu so thats exciting will be deferring till next semester to give me a chance to organise my head and heart, pick a topic, find a sponsor and sort my finances out for the year of full time study ahead...decided to do masters as a full time student its harder on my pocket but in reality part time just does not have as much support from my university....i think it will be good for me to return to uni and provide me with something to focus on and strive for...gamed on friday night finished the campaign of B's...it was nice to see him again....game was great as always am sad to see the end of it....Alex's birthday was last week and i was so caught up in my own crap i did not know....will try to make it up to him at some point.....Dan's birthday next week so trying to sort something out for that was hoping to have the day off to party with her on her birthday night but no such luck have to work...guess its good as i need the money...will party gently and try to drink only a little so as to still be able to function the next day.....things with M still strange...dont really know where i stand and feel like he still compartmentalising outside of his life..he's just doing it at his place now instead of mine....he's having rough time so i dont want to push...trying to be supportive but hate feeling like he's shutting me out...itd be easier if i did'nt care so much for him but hey thats the way it goes....the heart does what the heart wants and never makes it easy.....i hope he is ok and that when his life settles there will be room in it for me and that the role he wants me to play is the one i want to play but i guess only time will tell......have not seen christoph lately and thats makes me a bit sad but hope to catch up with him sometime soon....emma is in town and i enjoyed seeing her and hanging a bit sucks that she must return to the middle of nowhere soon.....all else is ok am over the poisoning finally although my stomache still a bit shakey but the pain has stopped now just have to get round to having the biopsy my doctor wants done.....am not too worried he is just being over cautious as usual....winn has black hair again..i liked the red but think the black always looks great on her especially just after its done...my hair is brown with little bits of red through it...not on purpose just cause i have not been bothered colouring it lately...will get round to that at some point.....car is running well love it and am enjoying the freedom it represents for me....must organise plate return, nrma road side assitance, new tyres and a wheel alignment but...yep you guessed it i'll get round to that at some point.....well gotta go now am taking ccare of a friends dog and loving the k9 companionship so will return to playing in the yard with zoe now.
cheers
jinx
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general up date crap

hi am still alive...busy cant type long...being hasselled...need to go to bed and sleep..working early...car good but still not transfered...im ok sore and feeling kinda spaced lately but hopeful it will pass....some people been great others jerks but hey nothing new in that although this time its the usual jerks who have been great.....and thats the way it is for this early new year....take care will update again sometime..
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jinx