hi all its been a while since i last posted but hey i was never labelled the most reliable within my social circles....things are still pretty crazy for me i am working alot but seem to be earning less...got offered masters at anu so thats exciting will be deferring till next semester to give me a chance to organise my head and heart, pick a topic, find a sponsor and sort my finances out for the year of full time study ahead...decided to do masters as a full time student its harder on my pocket but in reality part time just does not have as much support from my university....i think it will be good for me to return to uni and provide me with something to focus on and strive for...gamed on friday night finished the campaign of B's...it was nice to see him again....game was great as always am sad to see the end of it....Alex's birthday was last week and i was so caught up in my own crap i did not know....will try to make it up to him at some point.....Dan's birthday next week so trying to sort something out for that was hoping to have the day off to party with her on her birthday night but no such luck have to work...guess its good as i need the money...will party gently and try to drink only a little so as to still be able to function the next day.....things with M still strange...dont really know where i stand and feel like he still compartmentalising outside of his life..he's just doing it at his place now instead of mine....he's having rough time so i dont want to push...trying to be supportive but hate feeling like he's shutting me out...itd be easier if i did'nt care so much for him but hey thats the way it goes....the heart does what the heart wants and never makes it easy.....i hope he is ok and that when his life settles there will be room in it for me and that the role he wants me to play is the one i want to play but i guess only time will tell......have not seen christoph lately and thats makes me a bit sad but hope to catch up with him sometime soon....emma is in town and i enjoyed seeing her and hanging a bit sucks that she must return to the middle of nowhere soon.....all else is ok am over the poisoning finally although my stomache still a bit shakey but the pain has stopped now just have to get round to having the biopsy my doctor wants done.....am not too worried he is just being over cautious as usual....winn has black hair again..i liked the red but think the black always looks great on her especially just after its done...my hair is brown with little bits of red through it...not on purpose just cause i have not been bothered colouring it lately...will get round to that at some point.....car is running well love it and am enjoying the freedom it represents for me....must organise plate return, nrma road side assitance, new tyres and a wheel alignment but...yep you guessed it i'll get round to that at some point.....well gotta go now am taking ccare of a friends dog and loving the k9 companionship so will return to playing in the yard with zoe now.
cheers
jinx
xxx