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Adrian Adrian Adrian there you go you are now blogged about so quit your bloody whinging!

Absent friends

I just recieved a phone call from someone I have not seen in years..we were really great friends a group of four of us, Troy, Jeff, Krissy and me, they were always there when things got bad for me...Troy rang me to let me know that our friend Jeff has killed himself. None of us had seen him in years and to be truthful I had barely given him a thought since the last time I saw him about 4 years ago....I barely recognised him, he was in a bad way and a changed guy....but thats not the way I will remember him....I remember Jeff as one of the best people I have ever known...I remember him riding to visit me in west end on his push bike and cause I was sad he doubled me into the city and we rode at top speed down the hill in the middle of the night just to make me laugh....I remember Jeff as one we turned to when we were in trouble, the one who was always there ready with a smile and a smoke to make all your problems a little easier cause you had someone to share them with. He would always help no matter how much we might have annoyed him or upset him..cause he loved us and we loved him...the world has become a little sadder without him...but maybe it has become a little better for him wherever he has gone.

Flying Pigs and Venereal Diseases

Only in my life can something so strange come out of a seemingly normal event....I had a meeting with my supervisor about potential projects for my thesis next year (this is assuming I make the grade and am not thrown from the masters program - ARGH I am feeling teh pressure already) and we discussed several fields of interest...it has been narrowed down to 2 strong contenders...the first is a study on the identification of calibre and type of bullets from skeletal analysis...sounds cool huh....yep I thought so too until I pointed out that we did not have any people handy that I could shoot full of holes with a variety of different weapons....my supervisor was not to be deterred by mere details...he said "we will buy you some pigs" - WTF??? "You want me to shoot pigs? I ask in disbelief....You want me to shoot pigs, watch them rot then write about it?????? - dont worry he says we will buy pigs that are already dead!!!! I am unsure as to how to respond to this..........part of me is severly grossed out by this concept and part of me is thinking cool....except I suspect this would make a fairly bad line when meeting people and they ask about my masters??? Still it has to be a better pick up line than the alternative project we discussed.....
You know how some diseases have adaptive advantages when they appear in the heterozygote form..like sickle cell in malaria prone populations - well after a discussion I had with him in which I raised the question of whether a particualr disease in the medevial ages could have had an adaptive advantage he got excited as no one has as yet looked at this..."this" he says would make a great project..."Yeah" I reply "I could call my masters
"The Advantages of Venereal Syphilis" - Try picking up a date with that one!

So should a miracle occur and I actually make the grade for next year I can look forward to either telling people that I shoot pigs and then study the resulting effects, or that I am writting a paper on the benefits of syphilis...I guess it will be a lonely year for me!
Cheers
Jinx
xxx

Sadness...and then some.

Hi everyone this is just a blog of sadness...a dear family friend who has been in my life since before I was born is dying, we have known for a while that she and her husband another very dear family friend both have terminal cancer, but recently we learned that it has spread further and is now in her brain, she has gotten a lot sicker and it may be nearing the end....I guess we should feel blessed she has outlived her prognosis as has her husband, they are both living on borrowed time and at some point that will stop...I just feel so sad...I cry alot lately about it...it makes me scared too, cause it highlights how temporary living really is...I dont really know how to deal with this....maybe crying is about all I can do.

Things here are pretty shitty aswell...thought I knew where I stood with the friend I'd been sleeping with...I thought we were friends for a start but he starting being a bit of a jerk, then being sorry, then being a jerk, then being sorry, you can all see the pattern here...anyway something must have happened cause I said enough or else....well lack of response on his part indicates that he is fine with the or else part of that...called him to try get his things back to him and he said no response did not mean no caring or that he wanted end..then says cant get into this right now...I just hung up...no further word....sent message saying ok are we friends??? No word. Guess I dont warrent a reply. Its stupid that it hurts cause everyone saw it coming even me...but I guess when your ego takes a hit it hurts.....I am very sad by it cause I thought I saw something special in him..something I could relate too, I thought we would be good friends cause we understood each other....sadly I guess was wrong.
Lol at least i'm keeping form for those amongst you feel my taste in men could use some serious repair.....however I ask that you keep your I told you so's to yourself.....I dont want to hear it...there is nothing so spiteful as the self rightous I was right speach.

just needed to get that off my chest....okay on to other stuff now

Got a new phone thats fun it takes pictures and everything....Ooooh I hear you say...yes Ooooh indeed..it is possible the coolest phone I have ever seen...definetly the coolest thing I have owned in a while.....although I did get some extremely funky pressies from our returning heros from china...a very very beautiful scarf..almost too pretty to wear..almost! and a very funky heaty thingy that you press a button in and gel heats up to make a heat pack...then when you done you boil it and it returns to gel....very handy for sporting nights!!!
What else..read the new potter...hmmmmm well not sure if I should comment on that!
Oh remember when my camera go broken and then I sent it off to be magically made better by the camera wizards interstate?? Well got a package from them today....it was toast even thier impressive array of repair skills were insufficient to mend my poor little camera..so they sent me another one...different model..newer model..swanky...very very swanky...except I have no idea how to use it and it is a lot smaller than my other one was, lighter too so I feel like i'm going to break it even when I'm just holding it in my hands.
Leg feeling a bit better..stings when I walk on it too long....supposed to work friday...hmm hope it is ok and not too painful....have to see the doctor again tommorow so he can check it and give me all clear (hopefully) to go back to work....also got to ask what this whole BMI stuff is about cause frankly I think its stupidest thing I have ever heard of..and nutrition australia can quote me on that.....doubtful they would want to given its endorsed by them!

Anyway I'm going to bed now should try to sleep a bit so I can be up early.....times like these I need broadband and large sums of money so I can play games all night instead of sleeping and encountering either scary, sad, or just plain wierd dreams!
Oh yeah also have decided to start writting again....wont finish the book cause now the flow is gone and the first 3 quaters is nothing like what I try to write now..but not going to let that stop me writting all together...will just have to start something new....anyway now set aside one night a week where I dont study, or watch tele or visit with friends...its my creative time...it will be good to be writting again and usually it helps with my real life too..makes me a little ..hmm I dont know those of you who write or create in some way will know what I mean....goodnight everyone..thanks for the vent.
Jinx
xxx

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