A whole lot of stuff.......
Firstly to teh fairy if you reading....fair call and your right I should either seek both sides of the story or even better mind my own business.....all I can do plead over stress due to the crap in my life.....am feeling fairly defensive and depressed lately which makes me stupid.....am glad your cute little one thinks I am nice enough as I think she is wonderful....feel free to email me anytime James has details....promise to try not to be interfering cow in future..... :)
and now to other things:
M...hmm where do I start....the internet is a strange and wonderful thing....I was given an interesting blog to read....this is how I find out that he is a liar and full of crap....am very very sad and feeling like an idiot whose heart has been ripped a sunder once again.....A little while ago he came to me and told me he loved me...I believed him even though I should have known better given his previous actions over the last 8 months or so whike he's been f***ing me...but I gave him the benefit of the doubt...recently he told me he was having such a rough time...I spent maost nights this week awake worrying about him...turns out all he needed was more time to look for a better dating optino...like say someone at a speed dating event.... I feel like an idiot...I stressed out so much that I almost made myself sick with worry over someone who could care less about me......My situation gets worse as I wait for another couple of days so I can get tested to make sure Im not pregnant....just sick with somekinda stomache or hormone thing...heres hoping its a sickness.....cause really dont want to have face the alternative.....then again I think I would be an ok single mum.......
Uni is still hard, all my assessment is due this week and next...it just keeps comming and I dont know if I can take it anymore....I am tierd and sick...feverisj for 4 or 5 days but no time to see the doctor...especially as I have to see him next week anyways.......struggling just to keep it together at this stage....
Talk to Bela alot and that hurts cause I can still see the pain I caused him.......never wanted to hurt him which is why I said he should never have gotten involved with me...too late for those thoughts now huh......
My family is miles away and I miss them soo much...I was going home soon to see them but prob cant afford to just yet anymore so dont know when I will get the chance to be with them again...I miss my friends (I love you canberra people but still miss my other friends)....
My job sucks and my boss gets mad whenever I need time off for uni so now I just work and hope that I can study at night................well I guess thats about it really....this has turned into a dumping blog for all the crap I have been dealing with lately...I am so sick of being miserable and sad....going back on my meds is looking brighter by the minute.....still there are some some good things.....my sports team won at voleyball tonight and I played real well....... going to stonefest on the weekend which will be fun......
Thinking about moving back to queensland in a month or so...spoke to my mum and she thinks it would be a good idea...prob move to brisbane...it is closer to family, warmer, and I might be more stable there......will miss everyone here alot but am not sure I can stay here any longer....
Thats all for now
Jinx
and now to other things:
M...hmm where do I start....the internet is a strange and wonderful thing....I was given an interesting blog to read....this is how I find out that he is a liar and full of crap....am very very sad and feeling like an idiot whose heart has been ripped a sunder once again.....A little while ago he came to me and told me he loved me...I believed him even though I should have known better given his previous actions over the last 8 months or so whike he's been f***ing me...but I gave him the benefit of the doubt...recently he told me he was having such a rough time...I spent maost nights this week awake worrying about him...turns out all he needed was more time to look for a better dating optino...like say someone at a speed dating event.... I feel like an idiot...I stressed out so much that I almost made myself sick with worry over someone who could care less about me......My situation gets worse as I wait for another couple of days so I can get tested to make sure Im not pregnant....just sick with somekinda stomache or hormone thing...heres hoping its a sickness.....cause really dont want to have face the alternative.....then again I think I would be an ok single mum.......
Uni is still hard, all my assessment is due this week and next...it just keeps comming and I dont know if I can take it anymore....I am tierd and sick...feverisj for 4 or 5 days but no time to see the doctor...especially as I have to see him next week anyways.......struggling just to keep it together at this stage....
Talk to Bela alot and that hurts cause I can still see the pain I caused him.......never wanted to hurt him which is why I said he should never have gotten involved with me...too late for those thoughts now huh......
My family is miles away and I miss them soo much...I was going home soon to see them but prob cant afford to just yet anymore so dont know when I will get the chance to be with them again...I miss my friends (I love you canberra people but still miss my other friends)....
My job sucks and my boss gets mad whenever I need time off for uni so now I just work and hope that I can study at night................well I guess thats about it really....this has turned into a dumping blog for all the crap I have been dealing with lately...I am so sick of being miserable and sad....going back on my meds is looking brighter by the minute.....still there are some some good things.....my sports team won at voleyball tonight and I played real well....... going to stonefest on the weekend which will be fun......
Thinking about moving back to queensland in a month or so...spoke to my mum and she thinks it would be a good idea...prob move to brisbane...it is closer to family, warmer, and I might be more stable there......will miss everyone here alot but am not sure I can stay here any longer....
Thats all for now
Jinx
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