House sitting fun and sickness blues...
I have shifted into Ian and Sonia's place to look after the delightful pooch Norbert....who I might add is extremly cute and loves me alot but is also currently driving me completely batty!!!!! He chews on everything.....my hands and wrists are very sore, he farts at inapropriate momments in a closed up house, he tries to sit not just next to me but on top of me...he sleeps on my head and licks my ear to wake me up.....he is Norbert! *sigh* whats a girl to do? If only men displayed the same devoted love and affection this bizaare dog does....they have the farting down pat just not the loyalty!!!! oops that was a bitterness thing slipping in there! Sorry.
Norbet is also doing very strange things.....he plays games with creatures that just are not there ! I swear he is seeing things....he pounces and chases invisible play mates madly round the house before finishing the day with some invigorating tail chasing!!! LOL I am really enjoying being with a dog....I miss my dog back home and it is nice to have a K9 companion again for a while..even if he is slightly odd!
I have been sick again for the last week...went to the doctors the other day and he has no idea whats up with me...I have all the fluey symptoms plus some wierd fevers, moods, eating issues, muscle spasims, and raised blood pressure. He ordered a bunch of tests and hopefully i'll know this week...Unfortunetly I have had to come off all my medication suddenly while being tested...I had to stop taking Zyban (cravings for smokes driving me up wall) and can not even get my injection till after the results!!! Annoying.
I have been in a bad downcycle and alternating between crying for no reason and being really angry..I can not control it...not sure if its illness related or am just having stress issues...it is bad cause i will be sitting reading or watching tele, or even anything and then i'll be crying uncontrollably and not know why, and tonight i had people over to game and watch movies etc and by the time they got here i was so angry i could not stay in the room with them, I locked myself in the bedroom with the dog and read till i felt better, then called my mum and matt to cheer me up....then i sat with them and said hi but i was pretty rude...now i feel bad. I cried after they left but nothing i could do about it.
I read my email today and found that there are a whole bunch of people needing me to be in town over the next few days to let them into the lab after hours..which means i need to go home for a few nights....like friday, saturday, sunday, and monday...this means I need to ask people to care for norbert while I am back at home....I will prob ask jimmy cause thats who Ian suggests..but it will be a pain for him cause of work and I feel bad now...I just dont know.....Shit here come the tears again for no sodding reason.....My major exam is next week and Im worried i'll fail...but not only that if Im not available for those others in the class after hours...then they wont get access to the buildings...cause im the only one in the group whose card has after hours access authorization!!!!!
This class is really not cool...an exam worth 100 percent of our subjects marks set in the first week of what in queensland is called swatvac and is a period where no exams are set...a period for study..apparently you dont get that here...apparently here it is common practice to set an exam that is worth 100% of your entire subject's marks, 2 days after your classes finish..in the same week that every other peice of assessment in all your other subjects are due!!!!!
This uni thinks this is a good idea!!! call me stupid but I kind of thought that the idea was to make it possible for students to pass a subject without having a nervous breakdown or sacrificing quality of attention and grades in thier other subjects.....I HATE THIS FUCKING UNIVERSITY!!!!!!!!! maybe im spoiled from attending a university that actually gave a shit about its students when I went to JCU...but I guess this is the difference between a place of education and a place of indoctrination!
GRRRR ARRGGGG....sorry again with the bitchyness slipping through......*sigh*.....here come the tears once more.....after this year no more uni for me....not for a while..i need timeout, a job and a little bit of living to get some perspective back so next time when i decide to go back to uni to finish my post grad I'll be better able to maintain the optimism and dedication that you need to do more than merely survive it.
From the lands of shadow with love
Jinx
Norbet is also doing very strange things.....he plays games with creatures that just are not there ! I swear he is seeing things....he pounces and chases invisible play mates madly round the house before finishing the day with some invigorating tail chasing!!! LOL I am really enjoying being with a dog....I miss my dog back home and it is nice to have a K9 companion again for a while..even if he is slightly odd!
I have been sick again for the last week...went to the doctors the other day and he has no idea whats up with me...I have all the fluey symptoms plus some wierd fevers, moods, eating issues, muscle spasims, and raised blood pressure. He ordered a bunch of tests and hopefully i'll know this week...Unfortunetly I have had to come off all my medication suddenly while being tested...I had to stop taking Zyban (cravings for smokes driving me up wall) and can not even get my injection till after the results!!! Annoying.
I have been in a bad downcycle and alternating between crying for no reason and being really angry..I can not control it...not sure if its illness related or am just having stress issues...it is bad cause i will be sitting reading or watching tele, or even anything and then i'll be crying uncontrollably and not know why, and tonight i had people over to game and watch movies etc and by the time they got here i was so angry i could not stay in the room with them, I locked myself in the bedroom with the dog and read till i felt better, then called my mum and matt to cheer me up....then i sat with them and said hi but i was pretty rude...now i feel bad. I cried after they left but nothing i could do about it.
I read my email today and found that there are a whole bunch of people needing me to be in town over the next few days to let them into the lab after hours..which means i need to go home for a few nights....like friday, saturday, sunday, and monday...this means I need to ask people to care for norbert while I am back at home....I will prob ask jimmy cause thats who Ian suggests..but it will be a pain for him cause of work and I feel bad now...I just dont know.....Shit here come the tears again for no sodding reason.....My major exam is next week and Im worried i'll fail...but not only that if Im not available for those others in the class after hours...then they wont get access to the buildings...cause im the only one in the group whose card has after hours access authorization!!!!!
This class is really not cool...an exam worth 100 percent of our subjects marks set in the first week of what in queensland is called swatvac and is a period where no exams are set...a period for study..apparently you dont get that here...apparently here it is common practice to set an exam that is worth 100% of your entire subject's marks, 2 days after your classes finish..in the same week that every other peice of assessment in all your other subjects are due!!!!!
This uni thinks this is a good idea!!! call me stupid but I kind of thought that the idea was to make it possible for students to pass a subject without having a nervous breakdown or sacrificing quality of attention and grades in thier other subjects.....I HATE THIS FUCKING UNIVERSITY!!!!!!!!! maybe im spoiled from attending a university that actually gave a shit about its students when I went to JCU...but I guess this is the difference between a place of education and a place of indoctrination!
GRRRR ARRGGGG....sorry again with the bitchyness slipping through......*sigh*.....here come the tears once more.....after this year no more uni for me....not for a while..i need timeout, a job and a little bit of living to get some perspective back so next time when i decide to go back to uni to finish my post grad I'll be better able to maintain the optimism and dedication that you need to do more than merely survive it.
From the lands of shadow with love
Jinx
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