the couch is slowly becoming my world......eek.....help before it is too late.....thank god for remotes.

Just when you think everything is going good again and all in your world is happy .... am feeling crappy again....sick for the last few days and that is not condusive to a happy happy time...also having incredibly painful cramps for my first period in over a year....had to take a day of work which means less money....cant get through to matt to whinge to him...and the people here who i have tried to get in touch with have ignored me.....this has led to a sad sad jinx...have been too sick to do much for the last two days so i am sad to say my life has consisted of getting from bed to the couch then watching television or movies till it is time to go back to bed.....it is very depressing and my meds dont seem to be fixing it...they are usually good but not the last week....perhaps higher dosage but am already taking two a day and combined with my antibiotics and cold and flu tablets i am popping 8 pills a day...my system is crying....no pills i suspect are not the solution to this temporary crisis of lonelyness.....Gavin agrees that i need a hobby....i used to write but find my insperation as lacking as the chicken of happiness lately....also i cant write fast enough to keep up with my thoughts and as such need to use a computer or typewritter to write....my comp is loud and large and fixed in its current location in my bedroom...not a place for creativity...well the writting kind anyway....even the fairy lights have failed to inspire...but that i feel will pass when i am more active and busy...i always write and work better when i am pressed for time.....so a hobby i require...problem is i am not particularly intersted in any one thing...also financial constrants mean hobby must be relatively cheap.......I am stuck....please please offer suggestions....anyone reading this give me a hobby suggestion....updates will be posted as i continue on my sofa sojourn