Hmmmm

I love that no one reads this......I've written some shite things so its good that no one is listening. I reached a decision this evening...I will no longer be looking for the approval of those around me...if they dont like me, well thats their problem, those who bother to get to know me realize i'm not that bad...i'm kind, honest, loyal, and caring....once you get past the hard bitchy surface. I am mean sometimes, and I can even be anoying and self centered....wow i think i might be human! My life has been far from fun...I mostly dont talk about it cause it hurts and yeah I realize I obsess over things and have been in a bad mood almost perminently sinse arriving in this town...but hey I'm not going to apologise for that it is just something that happens to even the best of you, besides I am in a great mood around some people and when I am alone....so stuff all those that would judge the antics and rantings of a crazed broken girl whose birthday is soon and will probably be spent alone and sad cause all her loved ones are miles away and she has been too wrapped up in her pain to make the effort to make friends here.
Going to bed now before I begin thinking more unhelpful thoughts........really gotta stop having coffee late at night!